New Year...New Resolutions...

Of course the New Year brings about many new resolutions. I am happy to say that this year I only need to lose about 40 more pounds...not 140. BUT, what will it take to finally get me there? Can I do it? Am I willing to do WHATEVER it takes? I've had THREE surgeries in the past 6 months...on my feet, no less. How much can my body take? Can it take WHATEVER it is I need to do? I was back to the gym for the first time the day after Christmas. I hit it several times the week of New Years. I have been multiple times since then. I have a workout partner with the same goals as mine....lose 40ish pounds, train for a triathlon, cycle the MS150. It is the perfect setup. I have someone willing to privately train me....a professional. This person is checking my food journals, and has worked me harder than I've ever worked. And I haven't even started cardio work yet. For some reason, the whole thing has made me very emotional. Perhaps it's because I am afraid of yet another failure. Perhaps I am afraid of what may be necessary to finally say goodbye to obesity forever. Perhaps I am afraid my body will rebel as it has done before. Perhaps Satan is doing everything he can to discourage me. Perhaps...... My prayer is that I am able to do WHATEVER it takes. That I will SOAR on wings like the eagle..that I will RUN and not grow weary. This journey is far from over for me. It feels like I am in the final chapters of this journey, but the chapters are long and intense. I cannot allow the discouragement, the whispers of failure to creep into my brain and heart. This journey, for me, is spiritual. My goal of 2009 is to close this chapter once and for all, and to open a whole new book yet to be written.